Life Update

HEY GUYS!!!!!!

I was driving to work today and for some reason was reminded that I been on my blog in about a three years! CRAZY HUH? I don't know what possessed me to write to post something but I thought I would at least start with a life update.

The last time I posted on here was in 2013 and well....a lot has changed. For starters I graduated college in 2015 with my Bachelors in Criminal Justice with a minor in Social Work and now work full time as a 911 dispatcher. My boyfriend, the one from my last post, and I are no longer together but are still good friends. I no longer live on campus and now live in an apartment with two of my close friends. I live in Colorado full time now and actually recently gave up my Hawaii residency to start anew here! It has been a scary last two years of uncertainty about what I was going to do with my life, while attempting to pick up the pieces after my relationship. I'm still a work in progress but I do have hope that one day I will be back to normal (well as normal as I can get).

I'm hoping to post more and use this platform as an outlet for my emotions wither or not anyone actually reads this or not! If you're reading this HELLO and hope you'll come along on my journey through life.

XOXO LooLoo

The One Year Mark

My boyfriend, Dalton, and I just made a year on September 13th, 2013. I know crazy huh!? Can't believe that a year has already gone by. It feels like it's been a lot shorter, which i don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing? I see it as a good thing cause that means that we haven't got sick of each other yet or doesn't feel like the relationship is dragging. So here's the rundown of how we met. It was the beginning of our sophomore year. We were both up at school early for Fall RA training which happened that we were both on the same staff. Dalton was a late hire so I didn't meet him at our staff kickoff dinner that we had in the spring. The first thing I remember was seeing a douche bag looking guy with his Oakley sunglasses and his left arm was extremely sunburnt (he just spend the whole day driving hence the sunburnt arm). We didn't start talking until we got to our retreat, which was a day or two after we first met. We were doing small team building exercises and we ended up being partners for a blindfolded activity. I talked to him a bit during that exercise I started talking to him a lot more, even flirted with him a little bit. He had a girlfriend at the time unfortunately so I respected that but still continued to talk to him. We hit it off pretty quickly and even started making fun of each other in that flirty elementary school way (you know the make fun of you cause you like you kind of thing). I later declared us to be best "frenemies" because of all the making fun of each other we did. I thought that since there wasn't any chance of us getting together that we would at least be good friends. When we got back from retreat and got our staff phone number sheet, I put his number in my phone and texted him that night. We started texting a lot and hung out quite frequently with our other staff members. I even met his girlfriend when she arrived at school a couple weeks later. A month after school started Dalton and his girlfriend broke up. Everyone kept telling us that we were gonna end up dating but I didn't believe it because I didn't see any chance of us getting together. Plus I had got out of a bad relationship over the summer so I wasn't really looking for anything. Dalton told me he liked me through a text message when he went home for Labor Day. I was beyond excited to hear that someone I liked had liked me back. I went through high school where that didn't really happen so having it happen with someone I really liked was awesome! When he returned to school, we decided to be exclusive to each other but not be official since he just got out of his last relationship a few weeks prior (i know that makes me sound awful). I didn't want people to think that he had broken up with his girlfriend to start dating me and I wanted to make sure that he truly liked me and that I wasn't just a rebound. We became official on September 13th when we decided to make it official and we've been together ever since. I notice a difference in our relationship after being together for this long. We are a lot more comfortable with each other and we aren't afraid to show off our annoying qualities. I notice myself getting more annoyed than I did when we started dating but I also find myself loving him more and more every single day. We've hit the one year mark and  I'm hoping to keep on going! 

North Shore Day

Leanna, Lianne and I wanted to spend a day together so we decided to take a drive down to the North Shore and go to the beach. I haven't been there in a really long time so I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to go. Kasey (my little sister) decided to join us for she had nothing to do at home. This made the trip more exciting for Kasey has never been to the North Shore before. We packed up a cooler full of drinks, a couple of snacks and our beach stuff and headed on the road. Our day was full of tanning at Waimea Bay, going on a long adventure to find the sunflower field, stopping at Matumoto Shave Ice, and going back to my house to eat Yakiniku. Overall it was a great but it was a LONG day. I would definitely go again but next time we can let someone else drive.

TBT *Late Post*

This throwback goes back all the way from when we were born. It began with our grandfathers fighting beside each other in the war where they became best friends. Our mothers grew up together and then got married, which leads to how us four came along. Here's the who's who when it comes to us cousins. The oldest is Lianne (LC) who's younger brother is Brian (B). Then theres me and my little sister Kasey. So as you can see, poor Brian is always the only boy when our families get together. LC and I are probably the closest out of the four but we all still have a lot of fun when we are together.
We've become so close that we consider each other cousins (even though we aren't blood related). We celebrated many birthdays together, new years, and even Sunday dinners at Uncle Albert and Aunty Edith's house. Now it consists more of watching football, going to B's basketball games, graduations and having random dinners with one another. We've grown up together and have always been there to support each other in everything we do. It's come from the parents planning get togethers to us kids planning whens the next time we will see each other. It's always us three girls and B. Poor Brian, he must hate always being the only boy and watching us be weird with one another while he sits there and laughs. We've come from hanging out during our hanabata days and will probably go till we are old and gray with our own kids. Our families may be totally dysfunctional together but that's the way we like it!

Glad I'm Not A Parent Yet!

For my summer job I help watch kindergarteners at my old elementary school. In the previous years I've worked here, I've never had kindergarten until now. Before seeing the kindergarteners around campus was always my favorite part of the day because they have nothing but love for you when they see you but being with them ALL DAY, now that's a different story!

Of course being with the kindergarteners is always a fun and interesting experience. They say things without filtering but still have the upmost love for you as their teacher. Though sometimes I forget how young they are and come to the realization that a lot of them haven't really learned the difference between how they should and shouldn't act. They talk out of turn, push other kids, and sometimes say the rudest things to you; even though they don't realize that what they just said was rude at all. I quickly found out from working with kindergarteners that I fear for the moment of when I become a parent!!! Of course the idea of having a child with someone I love is something I can only hope for right now but the idea of parenting scares the sh*t out of me!!! I would be responsible for how my children behave and act with others. Some of my kinders are the perfect examples of how parenting isn't as easy as it looks. Parents do the best they can to make sure that their children are well behaved when they aren't around but sometimes that's just not good enough. These kids can sometimes be pure evil, but I know that's not the way their parents raised them to be. Its just a matter of that they are too young to understand what is the right and wrong way to behave. What the kids don't realize is that how they act is a reflection of the parents. When a child acts out, most people start to think "Those parents don't have good parenting skills". Sometimes they are right but most of the time they are wrong. Parents can't fully help the way their children act when they aren't around, for most kids act differently when they are with  them than when they are away from them. It just seems the only thing you can do as a parent is try the best you can and hope that your child acts the way you want them to. This hasn't scared me away from wanting children but it does open my eyes to the idea of that maybe I should start taking notes from my parents. I know I could never be the perfect parent but I'm hoping that I can find a way to parent my future children in a way where I wouldn't have to worry about how my children act when I'm not around.

Step Into My Life

Hello!!!

I've always liked the idea of writing my own blog but I never actually did anything about it....until now. I got the motivation to write a blog from my friend Leanna, who's blog is called lilismilee.blogspot.com. I read through her blog last night and I thought "Why don't I just write one and see how it goes?" I mean I've used tumblr as my blog for a while but I kinda grew out of tumblr and I thought this would be the next best thing. Writing my own blog would be great for me because..

1. It would be a great way for people to get to know me and what I do in my life, 2. It would be a way for me to get my feelings about things going on in my life, and 3. It's a great way for me to document my life for me to look back on in the future. But enough about why I'm here, let me tell you a little about myself.

So. My name is Taylor and I'm from the beautiful island of Oahu (more popularly known as Hawaii). I'm 19 years old as of today, June 30th 2013, and I'm going to be a junior at Colorado Mesa University this coming fall. I'm majoring in Criminal Justice and honestly am not 100% sure of what I want to do with that degree. I'm in what most people call "the best years of your life"so I want to bring you on my journey as I try to conquer college, being in love, and figuring out what the rest of my life is going to look like. Sorry this post is so long but I hope this gives you a tiny insite of who I am and I can't wait to show you what I have to offer:)

Till next time!!!
~ looloo♥